March 17th 2010

Every day becomes a battle.

Getting out of bed in the morning just means another day to suffer through. Allow myself blissful ignorance while at school. Keep your eye on the prize. Keep a strong smile. Let nobody see you waver. Stay strong. Go to therapy. Talk. Talk. Talk. Have dinner with a friend. Talk. Talk. Talk. Meet up with family. Talk. Talk. Talk. Get into bed.

Cry.

Wish it would end on it's own, because you don't have the courage to do it yourself.

Sleep.

Wake up drenched in sweat. Change clothes.

Sleep.

Wake up drenched in sweat. Take off clothes.

Sleep.

Dream.

Wake up.

Repeat.